Wednesday, September 26, 2007

LEAH-CHAN @ 9:44 PM

Mood: Shacked -o-
Music: We Belong Together by Big Bang [They're not bad y'know...for an Asian band since I don't listen to Asian music much]

Hey people,

Yes, sorry to inform y'all that I'm still alive...I'm kinda surprised though...I'm really tired...Why? Well, dance exams are around the corner (next friday, in fact) and I've got a Voice Ensemble Performance, known as Les Voix, on November 2nd I think. Yes, it IS on Izyani birthday >.<

Even though it's the holidays, I've been going back to school EVERYDAY - mainly to practice for dance and choir practices because...well, we all know I ain't the best dancer or singer. Lol

It's been really stressful because I just can't seem to get the steps right. At all. It really sucks. For choir, it's pretty easy because even though I haven't got the time or energy to practice at home, once I'm in school and starts singing, I'll catch up I guess. For dance, I really got to get it down but it'll look damn sucky if I don't.

Last week, I felt really down because I wasn't confident of myself. AT ALL. With a little (okay, ALOT) of help from some friends of mine and my dance team, I'm a little more confident of myself so...thanks to them! ^.^

But lately >.< I admit that my confidence have been faltering ever so much. Just yesterday, we've been drilling into ourselves the dance steps. And I can't get it. My team mates (or rather mate) have been like rather harsh...and I have to admit that I'm very scared...I just can't seem to get it at all!!! ARGH!!! *tugs on pigtails* It's so frustrating!

I've been practicing and I really felt like I wanna cry...But because of my pride, I didn't...Until I went home >.< T.T I just felt so hopeless! My feet was so awkward. My body was screaming and pain was tearing through it (I know this sounds damn dramatic but that's how it feels okay?). And I cried till I fainted - Hehe *grins nervously*

I know! I'm stressed! Yes, I can tell the damn signs! But it's not only that...I didn't eat - Hehe *grins nervously again* I'm fasting okay? I still drink and maybe I do eat alittle - like when the other girls eat. I guess my body can't take it. But I'm fasting because well, it's a good opportunity to lose weight and I guess I wanna feel how it is that the malays can survive every year like this. Kudos to them!

I'm not changing my patterns. I guess I'm just gonna strive for this for maybe another week or so. The dance exams are next friday. I'll have to survive till then. And after that, I hope everything's more relaxed I guess.

I gotta go now. I gotta get to school tomorrow for dance. I'll be in school from 10.30am to 10pm. 7pm to 10pm I have Voice Ensemble. >.< But before I get some sleep, I'll cry one more time to clear my head (and heart Hahaz) for the days ahead 'cause from tomorrow onwards, I might not have enough time to cry (wow, that sounds so dramatic Lol).

Ganbatte!

Always Synyster,
Leandra

Saturday, September 15, 2007

LEAH-CHAN @ 11:19 PM

Hey people!

This whole background and song and practically everything here is dedicated to my kitty babe, Mira! (She's a real human being and not a cat for those idiots out there =.= ) and my Onee-sama, Izyani!

Hey babe (Mira),

whatever happens, happens for a reason. All you need to know is that Cassy-wolf and mousey-me are behind you all the way. ^.^ And Adith too ^.^

Even though I met you awhile ago...
Even though you kinda scared me when I first met you...
Know that I'll be there for ya!

You totally brought a new light to me - you and Cassy! ^.^ And I'll never forget that. For all that you guys tried to do (like going up to random guys to ask for their numbers just for me), I thank you so this is kinda a thanks.

It's also a 'keep ur chin up!' There are others out there who love you for you...I know it's overrated and cliche...Even -I- get tired of that line but there is a part of me that believes that and you should you.

NEVER let anybody, especially just a GUY, get you down. Weren't you the one who told me "Screw what other people think!"? ^.^

You're awesome, beautiful and all-round FUCKING COOL! Don't even forget that! And I'm not saying that just 'cause I'm your friend. I'm saying it because it's the TRUTH and you, Cassy, Adith and all your other friends know it, girl! ^.^

Chin up and we'll make this day a frickin' party!! Hahahahah!

Always Synyster,
Leandra

Hey Onee-sama (Izyani),

I know you're feeling all depressed. Chin up, now you're having holidays and so am I. We'll do the stuff like making those chocolates and shit! Hahaha ^.^

Anyway, you've always been there for me so it's kinda my turn. So anything, give me a holler and I'll be there to lend a listening ear or whatever ^.^

Always Synyster,
Leandra

Here's something for everyone who's suffering because of a bitch or bastard in their life that has kept them from moving on and enjoying life. It's the meaningful song lyrics of 'Walk' by Avenged Sevenfold

Can't you see I'm easily bothered by persistence
One step from lashing out at you...
You want in to get under my skin
And call yourself a friend
I've got more friends like you
What do I do?

Is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I've been belong
You can't be something you're not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time

Respect, walk
What did you say?
Respect, walk
Are you talking to me?

Are you talking to me?

Run your mouth when I'm not around
It's easy to achieve
You cry to weak friends that sympathize
Can you hear the violins playing your song?
Those same friends tell me your every word

Is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I've been belong
You can't be something you're not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time

Respect, walk
What did you say?
Respect, walk
Are you talking to me?

Respect, walk
What did you say?
Respect, walk
Are you talking to me?

Are you talking to me?
No way, punk!

Respect, walk
What did you say?
Respect, walk
Are you talking to me?

Respect, walk
What did you say?
Respect, walk
Are you talking to me?

Are you talkin to me?
Walk on home, boy

Alritey then! ^.^ Enjoy this song! Please, if you wanna listen to this song, ask me for it. Or buy their album. DO NOT DOWNLOAD THE SONG OR STEAL THE LYRICS! Because...*smiles sweetly* ...I'll make sure you'll not only get fined but also end up in jail for jeopardizing Avenged Sevenfold's sales. *eyes glint threatening, along with the knife in my hand*

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Name: Leah-chan

Schooling In: Nanyang Polytechnic

Course: Multimedia & Infocommunications Technology, School of Information Technology

Birthday: 21st December 1990

CCAs: Foreign Bodies, Voice Ensemble

Colour: Black, White, Red, Blue, Green, Orange, Purple, etc ^_^

Hobbies: Reading, Writing, Singing, Acting, Dancing, Fashion

Music Influences: EVERYTHING but at the moment, JROCK/JPOP

I'm bi-polar i think.

One day, I'm happy and the next, I'm totally different.

Yahoo!: sweet_leah90@yahoo.com.sg

MSN: night_riot@hotmail.com

Livejournal: night-riot.livejournal.com

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I love music. It is my whole life. I can't survive with it.
I hope to be able to play the drums or guitar (electric) [that's once i have enough money to buy one].

I'm currently into Japanese music, and I love mixing their fashion with my own taste! ^_^

My new love is dancing, alongside singing, acting, writing romance fiction and creating fashion styles.
It allows me to express myself when I can't.
It relieves me from my stress.
Overall, I love dancing - I just need to get a confidence for it.

Hanging out with friends is another plus in my life. Friends, to me, equals to loyalty and honesty.

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