Wednesday, September 26, 2007

LEAH-CHAN @ 9:44 PM

Mood: Shacked -o-
Music: We Belong Together by Big Bang [They're not bad y'know...for an Asian band since I don't listen to Asian music much]

Hey people,

Yes, sorry to inform y'all that I'm still alive...I'm kinda surprised though...I'm really tired...Why? Well, dance exams are around the corner (next friday, in fact) and I've got a Voice Ensemble Performance, known as Les Voix, on November 2nd I think. Yes, it IS on Izyani birthday >.<

Even though it's the holidays, I've been going back to school EVERYDAY - mainly to practice for dance and choir practices because...well, we all know I ain't the best dancer or singer. Lol

It's been really stressful because I just can't seem to get the steps right. At all. It really sucks. For choir, it's pretty easy because even though I haven't got the time or energy to practice at home, once I'm in school and starts singing, I'll catch up I guess. For dance, I really got to get it down but it'll look damn sucky if I don't.

Last week, I felt really down because I wasn't confident of myself. AT ALL. With a little (okay, ALOT) of help from some friends of mine and my dance team, I'm a little more confident of myself so...thanks to them! ^.^

But lately >.< I admit that my confidence have been faltering ever so much. Just yesterday, we've been drilling into ourselves the dance steps. And I can't get it. My team mates (or rather mate) have been like rather harsh...and I have to admit that I'm very scared...I just can't seem to get it at all!!! ARGH!!! *tugs on pigtails* It's so frustrating!

I've been practicing and I really felt like I wanna cry...But because of my pride, I didn't...Until I went home >.< T.T I just felt so hopeless! My feet was so awkward. My body was screaming and pain was tearing through it (I know this sounds damn dramatic but that's how it feels okay?). And I cried till I fainted - Hehe *grins nervously*

I know! I'm stressed! Yes, I can tell the damn signs! But it's not only that...I didn't eat - Hehe *grins nervously again* I'm fasting okay? I still drink and maybe I do eat alittle - like when the other girls eat. I guess my body can't take it. But I'm fasting because well, it's a good opportunity to lose weight and I guess I wanna feel how it is that the malays can survive every year like this. Kudos to them!

I'm not changing my patterns. I guess I'm just gonna strive for this for maybe another week or so. The dance exams are next friday. I'll have to survive till then. And after that, I hope everything's more relaxed I guess.

I gotta go now. I gotta get to school tomorrow for dance. I'll be in school from 10.30am to 10pm. 7pm to 10pm I have Voice Ensemble. >.< But before I get some sleep, I'll cry one more time to clear my head (and heart Hahaz) for the days ahead 'cause from tomorrow onwards, I might not have enough time to cry (wow, that sounds so dramatic Lol).

Ganbatte!

Always Synyster,
Leandra

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Name: Leah-chan

Schooling In: Nanyang Polytechnic

Course: Multimedia & Infocommunications Technology, School of Information Technology

Birthday: 21st December 1990

CCAs: Foreign Bodies, Voice Ensemble

Colour: Black, White, Red, Blue, Green, Orange, Purple, etc ^_^

Hobbies: Reading, Writing, Singing, Acting, Dancing, Fashion

Music Influences: EVERYTHING but at the moment, JROCK/JPOP

I'm bi-polar i think.

One day, I'm happy and the next, I'm totally different.

Yahoo!: sweet_leah90@yahoo.com.sg

MSN: night_riot@hotmail.com

Livejournal: night-riot.livejournal.com

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I love music. It is my whole life. I can't survive with it.
I hope to be able to play the drums or guitar (electric) [that's once i have enough money to buy one].

I'm currently into Japanese music, and I love mixing their fashion with my own taste! ^_^

My new love is dancing, alongside singing, acting, writing romance fiction and creating fashion styles.
It allows me to express myself when I can't.
It relieves me from my stress.
Overall, I love dancing - I just need to get a confidence for it.

Hanging out with friends is another plus in my life. Friends, to me, equals to loyalty and honesty.

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