Thursday, October 25, 2007

LEAH-CHAN @ 8:21 PM

Hey people,

I'm really sorry but I think the next few posts will be kinda depressing. I understand that if you guys don't wanna read it. Just bear with me. *bows*

The update now is that I've come to terms that Kris won't like me and just treats me as a friend or a little sister. I don't mind. Because...I'm sad to report that Drake has been clouding my mind.

I've known him for awhile and he's affecting me so much. I keep getting pissed off at Drake and I don't know why!!! Maybe it's because he's so fucking clueless!!! (Please excuse my use of profanities at the moment *bows*)

Well, I'm also so confused with his actions! I just...ARGH!!! *tugs on pigtails*

I hate him.
I hate him for making me feel this way about him.
I hate how he crawls into my mind.
I hate how every actions he does is so adorable to me.
I hate how his voice reaches my ears and sends shivers down my spine.
I hate how he says my name.
I hate how he plague my dreams at night.
I hate him...

ARGH! Even the inner voice in my mind is telling me, 'Come on, you know that's not true. You like him. L. I. K. E. LIKE.'

Fine! You happy?

I like him.
I like the butterflies I feel whenever he's around.
I like the memories we make, even better, with the friends I have around.
I like the every little action that he does.
I like his voice and love the shivers that crawls all over my body.
I LOVE how he says my name, or rather, nickname.
I like that he appears in my dreams at night.
I like him...

I wanna confess to him actually but I'm afraid of what he will say. He's not coming this sunday. I'm VERY sad about that. If he doesn't come, then I have to tell him by phone. Which is actually much better but it'll KILL me if he doesn't call back or something.

If not, I'll write him an email now and tell it to him. I wanna tell him to think about it really carefully and to try and come on sunday so that he can give me an answer.

What if it's a rejection? I'll totally ruin the mood for the others. Maybe if he rejects me, I'll just go home so I don't have to affect the others too.

ARGH! I seriously don't know what to do...Help me...Please...

Always Synyster,
Leandra

You're Irritating Me, You Know That?
Do You Wanna Know Why?
Because I Can't Get You Out Of My Mind.

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Name: Leah-chan

Schooling In: Nanyang Polytechnic

Course: Multimedia & Infocommunications Technology, School of Information Technology

Birthday: 21st December 1990

CCAs: Foreign Bodies, Voice Ensemble

Colour: Black, White, Red, Blue, Green, Orange, Purple, etc ^_^

Hobbies: Reading, Writing, Singing, Acting, Dancing, Fashion

Music Influences: EVERYTHING but at the moment, JROCK/JPOP

I'm bi-polar i think.

One day, I'm happy and the next, I'm totally different.

Yahoo!: sweet_leah90@yahoo.com.sg

MSN: night_riot@hotmail.com

Livejournal: night-riot.livejournal.com

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I love music. It is my whole life. I can't survive with it.
I hope to be able to play the drums or guitar (electric) [that's once i have enough money to buy one].

I'm currently into Japanese music, and I love mixing their fashion with my own taste! ^_^

My new love is dancing, alongside singing, acting, writing romance fiction and creating fashion styles.
It allows me to express myself when I can't.
It relieves me from my stress.
Overall, I love dancing - I just need to get a confidence for it.

Hanging out with friends is another plus in my life. Friends, to me, equals to loyalty and honesty.

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