Wednesday, October 03, 2007
LEAH-CHAN @ 10:37 PM
Mood: Missing Him...*sighs* And My Other Friends...
Music: Crazy Over You by 112
Hey People,
I'm FINALLY back from 3 days 2 nights Voice Ensemble Les Voix Camp! ^.^ It was really fun and very tiring since it's not a get-to-know-each-other-more camp but instead a concert training camp. Here's a brief run-through of the camp:
Day 1
We met at 8.30am and started out with some ice-breaker games. Two only and been used in many camps before. But it was still very fun. First was trying to squeeze all your members into a small square which gets smaller each round. The second game was Human Entanglement. None of the groups won because at every turn, cross over, cross under, etc that we did caused more and more knots between members Lol.
Practice came and it was as usual. Mr. Ong came in the afternoon. After practice, I went off to dance practice where learnt about 1/2-8 of the second choreography before making ''rounds'' to other groups. Okay, I only went to Yismin's team but I love the members there! ^.^
Had a ''chat'' with Yismin about him. She's really sweet, trying to help me and all that. THANKS YISMIN! ^.^ Went back after that to do some choreography for the songs. Um...this is for VE, not FB Hahaz...I felt rather embarassed because the steps were like...uh I don't know. I guess I was used to dancing hip-hop steps but the VE choreo wasn't hard to catch. =.= duh...But I guess after getting used to it, the steps look rather cute ^.^
Then lights out was at 11pm but Sheryl, SuEe (who were both sleeping next to me) and I stayed until 1am before turning in. We chatted abit. Both girls teasing me about him. Hahaz and talked about...what else? Cute guys Hahaz...Hey, we ARE girls after all.
Day 2
Woke up in a daze. Did morning PT, known to VE as the 5BX. Wow, just ONE round around the track caused me to be EXTREMELY short of breath. Believe me, I sounded like I was having asthma. You can ask Sheryl hahaz. She was nice enough to lag behind and urge me on to finish the round. THANKS SHERYL! ^.^
After that, went off to dance practice where Andee, Esh and I practiced our part. ^.^ I walked around to...where else? Yismin's group again. Talked to her about her interesting love life ^.^ Halfway through, I went back to continue dancing before the girls from VE came and told me to go and change for a photoshoot. I was like 'SHIT!' and ran off to change, THINKING that I was late.
Then I realised that everyone had to wait until Mr. Ong arrived. =.= I was like WTH...I have to dance in my 'formal wear' O.O So I did a little. Then, VE came and told me to go for the photoshoot. I said bye to my group before going off with Hazel (she had to go back for her attachment at Cheers).
The photoshoot was all right, I guess. In one of the candid shots, I 'kissed' Li Dan (whom Sheryl and I named 'Pretty Eyes' because her eyes are REALLY pretty ^.^). It was very fun.
We went back to start the workshop. Two conductors came with Mr. Ong - Ms. Fanny Low (soprano) and Mr. Wilson Goh (tenor). So Ms. Low took us girls while the guys went next door with Mr. Goh. Mr. Ong stayed with the girls and helped out in playing the piano for awhile. ^.^
Ms. Low really taught us many things. I felt really bad because I couldn't sing well due to a sore throat and cough. It was pretty bad. One good thing about this workshop was that Altos weren't always the ''problem''. Hahaz. Nah, but seriously, I learnt so much.
Raise your soft palette
Inner smile
Breathe down
Facial expressions
Sing over the imaginary line
Pronouce the vowels
Focus the vowels to the center
Support your notes
Yup, so this workshop really helped alot. I hope I can remember to do EVERYTHING properly.
Met up with Yismin and was feeling 'emo' because wasn't so close to him that day. Turns out that he was...uh, I can't say because it would totally give away but Yismin reassured me that it wasn't my fault.
Played some games. First was Twister. I can't remember who won but it was SO PAINFUL! >.< I think it was Cai Yun. She battled it out with Emily. Lol Then we decided to play 'Bomberman', where those in the horizontal or vertical row of the 'bomber' loses. We paired up (I was with Cai Yun) and I can't remember who won the first round. Then we named each person 1 or 2 in the pair. Cai Yun was 1 and I, 2.
The 1s went first and I think Ben won. He was against...Shuai Xun, I think. Tenor senior against Tenor junior. Senior won. Hahaz Then the 2s played and Joyce and I were the last two. This time, Alto senior against Alto junior. Senior won. I WAS SO CLOSE! Hahaz
When we were all relaxing after that, I taught the girls some dance moves. The body wave and the krunk. Winnie could do the body wave! Cool! Then some girls and I peeked into the guys bunk. It was messy but looked oddly...nice...? O.o
I saw Shuai Xun's shoes (which I totally LOVE), and decided to 'borrow' it. Hahaz.
After that, I borrowed Li Fen's laptop and logged online to check out my email and all that. Chatted with Shuai Xun who was online and in the next room only Hahaz. He was so nice online and I felt guilty for 'borrowing' his shoes. Then I told him. Turns out that he didn't even realised! Which means, if I hadn't told him about it, I would have brought home a new pair of rockin' sneakers! *snaps fingers* Damn! Hahaz... I still felt guilty and apologized to him. I do still feel guilty now so SORRY SHUAI XUN! >.<
After that was Evaluation and Debrief and all that. We took lotsa group pictures. It was really fun. I'll try to get them and put them up! ^.^
Was supposed to go for dance practice after that but something happened that prevented me from doing anything. The guys were nice enough to tell me to go home and rest since even if I stayed there, I couldn't do anything so there was no point.
I took a cab back because I was SOOOOO tired and in pain. Body aches here and there and the stiff neck is...*pressed lightly on neck* OW! >.< Still painful...
Tomorrow is gonna be a VERY tiring and busy day since we have so much to cover and I really have to work and learn everything, not to mention syncronizing with the others and the...uh...I can't give away so...there are still other stuff we have to do.
*sighs* It's getting pretty late so I guess I had better get some sleep for tomorrow.
But before I go, here are some quotes and poems I found and felt like writing it out:
I see him
But he sees past me
I look in his eyes
But he looks around me
Does he know what I see
When he stares through me?
I see him
And I can't help watching him
Not watching me
Because I like you and I know you don't know it
I like you so much, I talk to everyone but you
And I wonder, what would you think of this little number
Yeah, I wonder, what you would say if you knew
Should I hesitate as I speak
Please don't think I'm preoccupied (not that you would notice)
For words don't come easily
When one really cares
And too often I evaluate each word
Trying to be anyone but myself
And the fear of rejection
Brings confusion
The confusion brings silence
And my heart prays that you might hear my silence
And understand
I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Ooh what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a food
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do
There! I know that it's rather mushy and emo-ish. I'm really sorry if you guys don't like it. It's pretty much what I feel in a rather poetic sense I guess. Hahaz but yeah...
Oh! I found this two sentence which was really true, from my experience in helping others in love Hahaz It's:
Too many of us stay walled because we are afraid of being hurt; we are afraid to care too much, fear that the other person does not care at all.
I'm afraid to tell you who I am, because if I tell you who I am, you may not like who I am, and its all that I have.
IT'S SO TRUE, ISN'T IT? If you don't understand, you can come and ask me ^.^ If you do, then think about it.
Many of us are afraid to tell our true feelings. Everyday, we plaster on a mask and carrying the other masks around with us for different times on different days with different groups of people. Why? Because the world stereotypes. No matter how much you say you don't, to a certain extent, you do.
Because it's human nature. You can't possibly love everyone and everyone can't possibly love you. There will be someone that you feel unsure about. There will be someone that feels unsure about YOU. Everyone can't please us and we certainly can't please everyone.
I guess this ''human nature'' is what holds us back in certain points of life. Don't you ever wonder? If I did this, will the outcome be better or worse? If I studied with them, I might be able to get better results! If I was friends with him/her, he/she might be the friend to remember and to keep! If I told him/her how I felt, we might be together!
That's a whole lot of thinking but I'm not asking you to sit down and ponder it. But let your mind say what it wants to to you. Listen to your heart; your mind; your soul. Never shush it for you might end up becoming someone which is the total opposite of how you really truly are.
Don't let what you think that others might say about you affect your decision unless it's a group one. If it is a group decision, then like the name say, decide AS A GROUP. But if it affects you and only you, listen to yourself.
Hahaz, I can say all this but why am I still holding back on telling him? Because words are easier said than done. Love is different, I guess. It takes time. One has to be patient but...sooner or later, you have to say it out. Better sooner or else, all the 'if i did this...' possibilities might come to mind. But use your common sense too. Love does not only affect you. It affects the ones you love too.
It's really complicated but if you wanna indulge in this subject further, please feel free to come and speak to me. I'll be more than happy to try and answer your questions. ^.^
Always Synyster,
Leandra
