Monday, March 02, 2009
LEAH-CHAN @ 5:02 AM
i wonder which side will take me after i kill myself. Whatever. Most probably none since the reason i was born is for other people.
I'm supposed to make everyone happy. If someone is feeling down, i'm supposed to feel the same way. I am not SUPPOSED to even THINK of wanting to live my own life.
But i can't even do my 'job' properly. All i seem to do is make everyone angry at me and each other.
I'm just a miniscule part of everyone's lives. I bet you that to others, i'm just a THING.
Friday, July 25, 2008
LEAH-CHAN @ 5:40 PM
Music: Summer Time - NEWS
Mood: Irregular o.O
I've decided.
I want to get a damn job. Save money then get online courses for Psychology. But it's gonna be hard. My aunt says that i could switch courses. To TP. Maybe I'll do that. It'll take alot of work for me. Especially convincing the rest of the family. Not to mention, the money problems...
Okane...>.<...Anyway, I hate MIT. So blehx.
Other than that, I posted up a fic. It's RyoPi (Nishikido Ryo x Yamashita Tomohisa - both from NEWS). 'Member-ai Cookies'. It's a one-shot and somewhat...crack? Yeah. So check it out if you want to. If you don't, *shrugs* no one is forcing you.
But if you check it out, PLEASE COMMENT! >.<
'Member-ai Cookies'
'Whispers of a Hidden Memory':
Chapter 1,
Chapter 2Enjoy the fics!
Genki dana
*ja ne*
Leah-chan
Labels: akame, fanfiction, member-ai cookies, ryopi, school, whispers of a hidden memory
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
LEAH-CHAN @ 12:56 PM
Music: NewS Pacific CD
Mood: Mehx
Just a heads up to those who actually read my blog, I did a little layout change of my LJ ^~^ It's Miyavi-sama! Mwhaha. It took me a long time but I'm gonna learn how to create my own layout then I'll use my own stuff...
IF Acer would text me that they're done! >.< But other than that, I might post a couple of fics up...Still just need to get my laptop back from Acer. *mutters* Stupid Acer...
Okay then, using Izyani's computer so i'll check back another time!
Ja ne,
Leah-chan
Labels: acer, layout, LJ, MIyavi, stupid
Sunday, June 29, 2008
LEAH-CHAN @ 12:20 PM
Mood: Hurt
Music: None...(sad, huh?)
I won't even bother to start greeting since I know that no one reads my blog. I'm here to rant.
It's been a while since my blog was 'emo' so I decided to 'emo' it up. Okay, excuse the lameness that is me.
Friendship. Bonds. How true are they? I wouldn't know.
A couple of weeks ago I had my heart ripped out because I got into a fight with a close friend of mine: Space-san (S-san). What were we fighting about? Christianity. She just came back from a church camp and had starting preaching to us (me and I-nee-chan). Thing is, I-nee-chan is a muslim. S-san had spoke of how God is superior to other religions and all that stuff.
I don't disagree with her but I really, really, hate those who force religions onto others. So I defended I-nee-chan. I spent hours of my mind to fight back and finally, S-san said okay. This was only after I said: no matter what religion (except Satanism), we all still look up to one person: the same God (just under different names).
She said to go apart for awhile. I felt hurt but I said okay.
Now, I'm in a fight with I-nee-chan (i think o.O?). She's been having a rough week. I really understand that she would want to escape from it. I should have said yes since the start. But I was worried that I wouldn't have enough sleep since I have school the next morning. So I told her that we can't be too late. Then she said okay, nevermind then.
I became worried that she would 'merajok' with me so i told her nevermind, I'll go since I don't want her to 'merajok' with me. I was willing to forgo that sleep for her since I figured that with the rough week she's been having, what she needs right now is someone to be with her. I don't mind after all the things she did for me. But she still 'merajok'! >.< I really don't know what to do...
After talking to a friend...my friend said that I shouldn't have sent the last text message to her (which was me being emo). "She doesn't need you to pour more problems - especially your emo problems which in a way blames her - on her own problems." Yeah, i shouldn't have done that. I guess I should apologise to I-nee-chan.
I hope she accepts my apology and doesn't 'merajok' with me. To others, she might be selfish but to me, I-nee-chan isn't. I was the selfish one, thinking of how many hours of sleep I could get, instead of understanding her feelings.
Now I do.
To I-nee-chan: *bows* Honto ni...gomen nasai...I'm really sorry for not understanding your feelings and being extremely childish. I will send you a text message to apologise if you do not see this blog post. Onegai...please...I don't want to fight with you...>.<
Well, I've ranted enough. I hope to have solved this before tomorrow. I'm fearing of having a heavy heart and mind, when I go to school tomorrow.
Ja ne,
Leah-chan
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
LEAH-CHAN @ 10:41 PM
Music: Hey! Say! by Hey! Say! 7
Mood: ...Mehx...
HEY PEOPLE!
Yes, I'm alive, SURPRISINGLY. I apologise for having my blog as dead as a graveyard. My laptop is REALLY screwed so there was alot of problems pertaining it, especially the money problem to pay for the repairs since I'm over my warranty.
I've managed to steal my aunt's laptop for a while to do a little update.
School holidays (WHAT HOLIDAY? =.=) are almost done and I haven't gotten down any studying at all. Why? Well, my mum got admitted to the hospital for her operation on the tyroid at her neck there.
Honestly, no one noticed the slight swelling at her neck (not even herself) except my grandmum. "Of course I noticed! This is my daughter, we're talking about!" =.= But yeah. She admitted last thursday - had her operation on friday.
It was supposed to be at 9am but we recieved a call saying that it was pushed to 7am. Panicked, me, my aunt, grandmum and my bro woke up, rushed around to get ready and took a cab to Singapore General Hospital to see her. We saw her sitting on her hospital bed, looking so scared.
It was the first time I saw my mother looking so scared. She usually is a strong woman - having to go through my father's cheating ways twice, seeing his 'girlfriend' (whom i have yet to find and beat up with my brother), going through divorce and all the financial problems. She always had that reassuring smile on her face.
My brother and I saw that scared face and broke down. We cried and hugged her for a while. THEN the sad moment was gone because the stupid doctors took so damn long to get ready. The operation started at 9am in the end =.=
Fortunately, the operation went through without any complications. We visited her everyday (at least once - for my grandmum, both times) after that. The scar across her neck/chest there still haunts my dreams. I have this fear that something will happen to her.
Also, I think i've been crying in my sleep because I wake up in the morning with swollen eyes, headache, heavy breathing and dried tear stains down my cheeks. But I've got faith that my mother will pull through. I hope so.
Oh! We found out that the calcium level in her body is dangerously low thus making her completely numb at times. That's why her stay in the hospital has been extended. Either way, I'm gonna have to visit her everyday to support her.
Since it's still the 'holidays', I'm visiting the 12pm-2pm time slot. But when school starts, I'm visiting her after school during the 5pm-8.30pm time slot. ^~^
But this means that I STILL won't be going back to Voice Ensemble anytime soon. I was really hoping that when school starts I will be able to go back but I guess not...*bows* I'm really sorry guys! Please forgive me!
Mah, at this moment, I don't really have anything much to say. So I'll be off for now...Ja! Genki dana minna-san!
Ja ne,
Leah-chan
Thursday, April 24, 2008
LEAH-CHAN @ 12:29 PM
Mood: ...Nothing...
Music: Daite Senorita by Yamashita Tomohisa
Konnichiwa minna-san,
I finally decided to actually update my blog...I got bored ^~^ I apologize for being dead on my blog. I'm more active in CrunchyRoll - more specifically, a group for Ueda Lovers ^~^
I met so many people! Hellos to Fai-chan, Eien-chan, Nad-chan, and the others from UedaLovers!
Fai-chan: we have to meet up soon!
To the others: let's all save up and meet up in Japan! Then on to stalk Ueda Tatsuya! Lolz
Okay, I actually have no idea what else to say so I'll check back later! ^~^
Genki dana minna-san!
Ja ne,
Leah-chan
Saturday, February 23, 2008
LEAH-CHAN @ 5:49 PM
Music: Someday for Somebody
Mood: Happy & Accomplished!
Hey People!
So sorry I wasn't able to reply at all. My computer is currently OUT-OF-COMMISSION. Replies back to...
Shert: I'M SO SORRY! *bows* I don't have the money to fix it right now but I'll try get it fast!
Shi Pei: I'm still in Singapore, hon! Lolz
Mira: Lolz, haven't heard from ya for a while, babe!
Anyway, updates! Chinese New Year was all right. Dad's side wasn't pestering my bro and I anymore because they had their hands full on this annoying, stuck-up brat who demanded food, money, things and went around bragging about what she can do while she is but a mere 5-year-old.
I was never more grateful for my cousins, Ryann, Rae-anne, Skipper and Inche, in my whole life. They may be annoying at times but they're just kids so they need attention but they have NEVER, I repeat, NEVER demanded attention before. So I'm grateful.
Valentine's Day was all right. We didn't celebrate it. Instead, Izyani, Lydia and I celebrated SINGLE AWARENESS DAY! Muwhahaha! This tradition started last year with Izyani and I so we brought Lydia in! It was better to spend time with your friends than to mope around at home just because you don't have a boyfriend.
We went to Pizza Hut and had a hefty meal! All of us were so hungry because we hadn't eaten the whole day! Lolz The meal costed $60+ T_T I had to use my card while they paid me in cash hahaz. But it was really fun!
Haha! The movie, L Changed The World, is OUT! And I watched it yesterday with Izyani and Lydia. Hanisah was supposed to come but she backed out. I think it's because she hates me T_T She feels awkward around me - I have no idea why. I mean, I DO sometimes feel that way too since she and Izyani knows each other for, like, 13 years already while I know Izyani for a mere 5 years.
And because of the 'third-wheel-syndrome' that both Hanisah and I feel (it's when you feel like the third wheel when you go out with your friends), Izyani is stuck in the middle. So that's why I'm willing to be friends with Hanisah. But she ain't making my job easier T_T I haven't seen her since my birthday! She keeps backing out of trips if it's the four of us (yes, including Lydia). *sighs*
Anyway, since today is a SPECIAL day, I had ventured my ass out of my house and borrowed a friend of mine's PC. What's today, you ask?
...*drumroll*...
...IT'S KAME-CHAN'S BIRTHDAY...!!
Yes, our dear Kame-chan is turning 22 today! T_T he's going further away from our ages Lolz Anyway, I wish Kame a great birthday! And let's hope Jin doesn't spoil it with his emo-ness! And Kame don't be cold back to Jin *whispers* even though sometimes Bakanishi deserves it! Hehe
This picture is dedicated to Kamenashi Kazuya from KAT-TUN, the other KAT-TUN members, Izyani (because she is a hardcore dedicated Kame-fan) and other Kame-fans!
WE LOVE YOU, KAME-CHAN!!~
GET BACK TOGETHER AND AMEND THE FRIENDSHIP, BAKANISHI!
KAME IS TOO GOOD A FRIEND TO LOSE (like Izyani and Lydia ^_^)!!
I spent countless hours making a video for Kame too! I posted it on YouTube! Check it out if your want! The link is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GDbnb6fas4
PLEASE WATCH IT AND COMMENT! *bows* Arigatou gozaimasu! Genki danna, minna-san!
*ja ne*
Leah-chan
